The future... Something I'm not really looking forward to. Well, I sort of am. I'm excited to be my own person and have the choice to be alone 24/7 because that's what I prefer anyway. But I'm also scared of what's to come. Unlike my friends, I'm not necessarily ready for complete independence. I am not looking forward to college, I'm not looking forward to driving everywhere, I'm not looking forward to having responsibilities! Obviously I'll have to suck it up. But regardless, those are my feelings.
My goal right now is to live. Not survive, but live. Everyone spends so much time planning for their future... when they're not even guaranteed one. I'm sick of playing it safe. I am slowly being driven to insanity through the repetition of my daily routine. That's why I get up at 2 am every day now because it's just something different.I can't keep living in the same broken record.
I hope to find something in the future that will make me want to wake up in the mornings. Something that will make me thankful that my eyes opened to the sun again. I don't know what I'll do if that doesn't happen.
p.s. none of the songs from my Perfect Playlist are on your Spotify Playlist :(
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