Alexis Kirkland: I'm Too Blessed to be Stressed (25)

How do I manage all of my stress?

I don't.

At the moment, I'm not concerned about any of this. This year, I learned a lot about the true value of the things we are stressing about right now regarding school. I know that the value of my life is not determined by my scores on any of these tests. Granted, that doesn't mean I'm not going to study or strive for the best I can be, but that does mean that I'm willing to accept whatever the consequences are. I genuinely just cannot find it in myself to give a damn (excuse my French) anymore. I just don't care. If I do well, so what? If I fail, so what? I am too young to be crying myself to sleep each night because of my fears that I can't do it. I know I am capable of achieving success. The answers are right in front of me. All I have to do is try. And it's my own fault if I don't try. I know I'm going to do what I can, and if it starts to alter who I am, then I will stop. I refuse to compromise my well-being for a number. And if  I fail because I chose my health over my grades, so what? Yeah yeah yeah, college college college, blah blah blah. Look, I'm not here to spend my days worried over grades. If it doesn't happen, it doesn't happen, and it's because I didn't do enough to make it happen. Big deal. I'm here to enjoy the little time I have on this Earth. Yes, I know that I must work hard to be able to reap the rewards I seek. If I don't work hard, then there's nothing I can do, therefore there is no use in worrying about it. I deserve whatever I worked for, and I deserve whatever happens if I didn't work quite hard enough. So, in the end, I look around and see how good I have it still, and remember that I'm too blessed to be stressed. I'm gonna do my job and that's it. And I can die when I'm done.