The future - Grae chambers

My junior year. The end of my 16th and beginning of my 17th year. I could write you all a novel on the lessons learned this year ( PLEASE SOMEONE TELL ME YOU PICK UP ON THAT REFERENCE) , but I'll refrain seeing as it's 5 am and I'm not sure what motivated me to write a blog post right now but I am. Anyways, I started off this year thinking that no year could be nearly as life changing as my sophomore year. I was so incredibly wrong. I started off the year thinking my health and related school attendance would be so much better. I was so incredibly wrong. i was prepared for my class load for the most part but nothing could prepare me for the panic and uncertainty I feel to this day when asked a physics related question. This year I learned way more outside of the classroom than I did in if and I'll share just a few blips of wisdom with you all now

- taking a risk and failing always feels better than knowing you never tried at all

- no matter how independent you think you are, you need people. And I've found that best friends are the best kinds of people for that.

- do something that makes your heart smile but benefits other people more than it benefits you

- hold on close to the people you love, do not push your parents away you could find out that they're extremely cool people who were high schoolers too and have lives outside of being mom or dad 

Okay so my future. Every time someone asks me about my future I get sent into a spiral of panic but I'm trying not to do that now. What do I want from my future? lately I've wanted to freeze time in its tracks because every single piece of my life right now, and every piece of my friends lives are kind of perfect right now. But it's getting time for me to be a big girl and realize that I'm still growing and things are gonna change. Senior year I want to finish off high school knowing that I did everything I could to soak up each of its moments, even sitting through AP classes or seeing fights in the cafeteria. These things only happen once in our lives people and if you blink you miss it. Okay so after senior year if you really must make me think about it, I want to be in college, but I don't want to fade into the background among a sea 18-24 year olds. I want to shine through, I want to be making a difference in people's lives, I want to know what my future career is and I'll want to be secure in the fact that I'm going to be okay. Ive been wandering around uncertain of who I am or what I want the ought most of high school, and I want that feeling to go away in college. Also I hope all of you get into your dream schools and you make the best friends and you find so much success. There's no one I belive in more than the acadakids I can't wait for our senior year love you guys okay this is trailing off so much I'm so sorry please stop reading it okay bye