Assignment 10: Evan Hays

"The only thing to fear is fear itself"

Fear is a human response to danger, it is a derivation of survival function. We fear, because without fear we would be free enough to die and not mind all that much. Within the human brain are the same chemicals and synapses that all animals share, within those are the same molecules and energy that all life shares. But life is a competition, and there wouldn't be a circle of life if there weren't carnivores, herbivores, and those little survivors, the omnivores.

What do I fear?
Well, on one hand if I take life to seriously and live in fear then there will be no reason to live. Few things thrill me as much as the arena, the action, and the allowance to will that life has given me. If there is no enjoyment in this conquest then what reason does it have?
On the other, if I don't care at all then, like I said, I could die tomorrow, and in a day my life, memory, and legacy would be dust. This I also fear.

So, I suppose my life is compounded as a series of "ifs". Nothing but my desires, and the fear I have to pursue them. But in my life, with my fear, and concerning my experience there are set circumstances that I enjoy. Most of them are people. I have seen the graces of life with my friends and, to put it frankly, I have waded through literal shit with them. And though there was fear, and though there is desire, as Stanley Kubrick would say, the memory, the story, the blood stains from that arena are forever stained in my mind too, but instead of my blood its my Serotonin. So what do I fear?

I don't, I can't, and I will not lose them. I love my friends, and I will even if they do not love me.

This is my fear.